our dear friend jeff

not to sensationalize your weight

but it did feel significant that you

were disappearing from the world

in a physical sense like how men

sometimes thin and sinew as they

age just raw muscle and hollow

bones worm-like ready to collapse

in the dirt

so that’s the prologue to the moment

when you let your hands fall from

whatever hopeless gesture you were

making your wrists as birds against

gravity saying what if my life

passes me by

which is the moment i return when i

think that you are actually the bravest

person i know because you said okay fine

you have filled out since then

like your wrists have a bit of meat

on them i mean i don’t super

know what you look like right now

but i picture you dancing around

your apartment like a jackal lean

and wild and flashing teeth in the